hello aini

whereas the silence has been decieving

and then the cannon came right in

peace’s crawling and bleeding…

do you still wonder about the world, my friend?

no tomorrows for us, not until the end

hear the bombs singing and constantly raging

a bull’s-eyes target, to our bodies where you’re aiming

burn our greeniest farms and our everything

see the bullets sleeping on our pains

conquer our lands to feed your hands

burry us and the freedom beneath the coiled winds

sure we’ll hang up our white flags

if it assures you, my neighboor =]

and we’ll surrender to your trait

after all it’s a waste to wait

watch us, the people you’re taking

and the people you’re killing

with no difference between you, then we were just unlucky

to be born not in your country

this is where peace starts crawling

prosperity ran crying

and poverty starts taking in

if you look closer we’re your friends

we just didn’t have the time to send you our greetings and smiles

because our smiles had died with the cannons your dropping to us

and our greetings faded when you shot us with your bows

maybe someday we’ll see each other

with satisfaction in your wars

and sanctuary covering our stars

and silence is no longer decieving….

ini sudah hari kedua saya K.O. kena typhus. jadi berat badan yang selama ini hilang banyak kena cacar dan kulia 23 sks tiba - tiba datang kembali dengan serentak seiring datangnya typhus inih. kerna pengidap/penderita [yek ngguilani..>.<] typhus emang seharusnya total bed rest, nggak heran kalu obatnya ngandung obat bius yang buuueerraatt that the second I tried to stay awake,,my fever kept coming back again. jadilah kerjaan saya cuman maem [maem pun kalu nggak roti lembek ya bubur..-_-"] dan minum obat. setelah minum obat langsung K.O. gara - gara efek anestesiknya..hii.. walhasil berat badan nambah banyak.

tapi nggapapap deh,, toh bies nih juga pengkaderan dimulai. praktikum juga. kuliah saya juga mulai berat. semoga lemak nggak sehat yang saya dapet paska typhus ini nantinya bakal ilang dengan sendirinya.

kalian sendiri apa kabar??moga - moga nggak banyak dapet cobaan kek saya sekarang iiak…>.<

oiia kapan hari saya jalan ke TP ngliat ada tas nine west uuuuapiikk!! jaaannnnggkkkkrrrrr*****kkk….pengen aku kkkkrrrr******kkkk….!! hiih… bentuk nya tuh vintage,, basically sih bentuk ransel, tapi bukan ransel cupu aala eager atau the north face [buwat penggemarnya dua merk ini: peace man \\ // ]. jadi cara pakenya pun unik,,kek pake ransel tapi yang talinya dijadiin satu. bahannya leather, warnanya bright orange. talinya panjang. huh sumpah puengen aku. tapi kerna itu saya liatnya di gerainya nine west, nggak heran kalu harganya bisa nyampe 6 figure range. -_-" nabung nabung…

saya udah nonton filmnya ayat - ayat cinta dan jujur saja film ituh jelek. bet malah [buat penggemarnya novel atau film inih: peace man \\ //]. alurnya suuuuwwwiiii. aktingnya juuueeeleeekk…kuuuakuuu… terus untuk orang yang belom baca novelnya kek saya, saya jadi males baca novelnya dan jujur aja, kalu emang cuman liat filmnya, saya ngga "dapet" essensinya ceritanya ituh apah! orang - orang bilang novelnya keren bet,,ngangkat aspek poligami secara jujur,, but at the same time,, juga ngangkat gimana diagungkannya wanita sebenarnya dalam agama Islam. tapi maaanaaa….??kalu cuman nonton filmnya ajah,, yang didapet cuman bosen daaaannnn: nah ini ada satu hal yang menarik yang saya perhatiin dari film ini. Propertiesnya film ini tuh duuuiikit bet tau nggak? buat yang lom nonton,,ntar perhatiin deh: baju yang pernah dipake ma melanie putria tuh dalam film itu dipake juga ma zaskia. terus jilbabnya rianti juga dipake ‘gantian’ ma zaskia. terus tasnya maria tuh, dipake juga gantian ma yang meranin mamanya zaskia. terus bajunya tuh tuker2an ajah antar pemaen! huwekekekekkk..kurang budget buwat properties ya mas…?

sejak saya sakit, kopi dah bener - bener saya tinggalin. ya Allah,, merana cabs hidupq tanpa kopi…!T_T berasa idup tanpa sarapan…[heks..] instead, saban saya ngerasa haus,, segera deh saya nelen aer putih sebanyak - banyaknya [ini warning dokter sih.]. orang typhus kudu banyak minum aer. jadi klu ntar malem saya hang out ke starbucks,, dengan sangat terpaksa saya harus pesen black chai latte. gaboleh juga pesen potato salad yang saya cintai kerna sayur bakalan nyusain kerja usus. jadi saya cuman bisa maem cheese cake atau cake - cake yang sama lembutnya. x_x it hurts to be sick.

petualangan saya nyari obat jerawat yang pas buwat saya juga sudah bisa dikatakan berakir kerna saya suda menemukan obat yang pas bet buwat jerawat2 jahanam inih. Verile. hehehe. nggak nyangka kan?? bahkan verile acne gel ini bisa ngalain obatnya dokter beni lo..! beneran! awalnya feeling saya ajah pengen coba pake obat inih..eits ternyata alhamdulillah berhasil..huff.. bekas2 jerawat dah mulai lepas dan jerawat2 juga suda tida timbul lagyh.

oiia lupa, balik ke topik sebelumnya yaitu tentang film. buwat kelian yang ngikutin perkembangan film luar negri, keknya pasti dah ngga asing kan, denger2 berita tentang film Juno? saya heran deh. sebenernya ada apa sih dalam film ituh yang bikin dia dipuji abis2an ma kritikus film amrik daaann menang banyak award jugah? ceritanya kah? atau ellen page yang aktingnya….I don’t know,, -I happen to think she’s ordinary..nothing really special- outstanding? kemaren film inih menang academy awards juga kan iiah? ada apanya toh film inih? jadi penasaran…-_-"

yaudin..ini saptu malem minggu, jadi buwat kelian yang mu malem mingguan ndang maca’ [dalam bahasa jawa berarti dandan]..hehehe..cheers..!!

1.Blkangan ini sring mikirin siapa?
+ dia…..^-^ *****/*******

2.Blkangan ini sring ngerencanain apaan?
+ jalan2 keluar kotah..

3.Km sk gigit sedotan g?
+ selalu. nggak pernah enggak.

4.Apkh nikah bgian dr rncn ms dpn km?
+ ojok sampek enggak..

5.Kpn trakir kali km blg i love u?
+ lali mas..wes suwi..

6.Apa yg smestiny km lakukan skrg?
+ kuliah. tp sayah bolos.

7.Ingin menikah?
+ yupsie

8.Slaen d rumah,pernah tdur di?
+ kelas. uks. mobil. kereta. pesawat.

9.Mndingan dsuruh nyanyi ato nari?
+ nyanyi. balonku ada lima..

10.Lg suka lagu apa?
+ balonku ada lima. akir2 inih sering denger laguh ituh sebelom bubu ^-^

11.km lagi senenk ngga?
+ yupsie

12.Apkah d jari km ad cincin?
+ nope

13.Apakh d leher km ad kalung?
+ nope

14.Apkh d tgan km ad gelang?
+ nope

15.Skrg lg pgn minta apa?
+ ngga adeh

16.Mnrt km wajar g klo kt jdian?
+ ?????

17.Prnh mdi hujan bareng pcar?
+ engga..saya takut make up luntur, dia takut gel dirambutnya ngerembes. hakakakakakk…

18.Nge date/kncan impian km it yg gmn?
+ yang…………………munyunungkun!!^_^

19.Prnh dkhianati shabat?
+ yep

20.Prnh rawat inap d RS?
+ pernah. pas baru lair.

21.Klo km dcntai shbt km?
+ hati saya senang

22.Prnh jd target ktakan cnta?Di TV?
+ pengennya..hahahahhaha

23.Prnh dremehin?
+ iya dunks

24.Prnh mrasakan cinta yg bertepuk
sebelah tgn?
+ keknya sekarang lagyh gituh deh

25.Prnh mrayu pacar pk gitar?
+ pake piano pernah..-_-"

26.Pacar km siapa?
+ JOHNNY DEPP. hakaakakakkaka…..:D

27.Trakhir mimpi ap?
+ kaga ada

28.Apa wrna buku diarimu?
+ gak jaman mas. jamane blogging saiki.

29.Trakir dpt hadiah ap?
+ liburan ke KL

30.Apa menurut km,cinta itu indah?
+ njih

31.Apa km g bs diem anaknya?
+ bisa kow

32.Apa km sk nyanyi?
+ suka.

33.Apa km sk mkn?
+ suka P-P-P-P-PO-PO-POL-POL-POL….

34.Apa km sk bertemen?
+ yeppp

35.Apa km sk film horor?
+ suka kalu nontonnya ma ……. hwekekkekekekek

36.Apa km sk film romantis?
+ yupsie

37.Apa km sk rebut pcar org?
+ sebenrnya ngga suka…>.<

38.Prnh dikasih cincin?
+ pernah

39.Brapa kali km mnjatuhkan hp km?
+ sering mas

40.Fav mnuman kras?Knp?
+ aspal. ama sedikit beton. kerna bikin cepet masuk surga. X-P

it does feel like I’m being stuck in a relationship that goes straight to nowhere. it doesn’t feel like we’re being just friends. instead, it feels like we’re being JUST friends.

I think I’m in trouble. because I’m starting to want this relationship to not be JUST friends. I think I’ve fallen. >.<

aaaaaaarggggggggggggghhhhhhhhh…….!!!I can’t believe this!!after all these boys coming in and out of my life [10 boys in 8 months!!TEN boys in EIGHT months!!],,and I still got to choose the one that I can’t have???SSSSHHHHHHHH*************TTTTTTTTTTT…….

I wanted this feeling to go away. but he keeps on coming back. and did things he wasn’t supposed to do when playing his role as JUST friends. no no no,,we didn’t ****,, NOT IN A MILLION YEARS!!

it’s these small things like ****ing hands,,str*k*ng hairs,,etc.

Okayh, so he **** my hands. and I didn’t even MIND!!aaarrgghh….!! I lost all defenses!!

look, the point is,, he wasn’t exactly playing his role well too! we even fought for something…well..umh…unimportant. and worse, there were actually emotions involved in that fight..uuuwwhh.. >.<

anyway, he’s HOT. I’m NOT. do I stand a chance of winning him?? -_-"

pernah tau rasanya kecanduan kopi tuh kek gimana? ya gini ini. ini udah ketiga kalinya saya blogging harih inih gara - gara saya gy gatel [buwat orang surabaya yang baca kata terakir barusan,, "e"-nya dilafalkan seperti "e" pada kata "lebih" atau "empat" ya, bukan "e" yang lain. OK!] beeeettt…. pengen minum kopi!! apalagyh udara gy dingin - dinginnya kek ginih inih..anjrit..sumpah bayangin minum kopi sambil ngemil permen nougat and baca novel seems HEAVENLY!!T_T God please help me fight this addiction….>.<

adiksi ini juga yang akirnya maksa saya blogging lagyh untuk kedua kalinya hari inih. I need a distraction, to keep me from thinking about coffee…-_-"

so,, instead of a finger-licking good tempting cup of cappuccino,, I have a can of PonPon V Orange Float by my side. T_T

anyway, this is the last day of my first-term holiday here in Informatics Engineering. Tomorrow I’m starting the second one and I really don’t know what to expect. We’re moving out to a new building located not very far from the former building we’ve been using for a semester. Hmm..let’s see what we can expect from it. FIrst, because it’s new and all, I expect it to bear that freshly-dried paint all over the site, and the walls to be unimpeccably CLEAN [but not for long of course].  Then, because of the virginity of the area, I also expect no fully-grown trees,nor plants. Or both. -_-" aaannddd for that,, I expect it to be HOT! LITERALLY!. hmmphh…

Ok now I have orange sacs slipped in between my grahams. >.<

hmmm…saya gy mu donlod lagu - lagu nih. ada saran, lagu - lagu yang laik [EYD untuk kata layak] di download??

1. What’s the best love story you’ve
ever watched?
50 first dates. aaawwhh…sooo swwweeeetttt…..

2. Do you think you’re ok?
nope. my liver’s killing me…>.<

3. Song playing at the moment?
Daft Punk

4. One song to describe current relationship?
Love Foolosophy

5. Accessories you usually wear?
watches..

6. Fave color(s)?
pink!!

7. Ever donated blood?
nope

8. Last place you went to?
surabaya town square

9. Last person(s) u went out with?
bonyok

10. The most exciting sport?
billy…^-^

11. Ever had a permanent tattoo?
nope

12. Movie you want to watch?
jumpers. sweeney todd. and the most must-seen movie: THE GREAT DEBATERS..hakakakk…

13. Any piercings?
ears

14. The most romantic gift ever
received?
red-pink velvet blanket. engagement rings.

15. Act on stage before?
nope

16. Struck by lightning before??
ojok sampek le..>.<

17. Danced with your loved one before?
hakakakakkk….yea…

18. Ever wished you could turn back in time?
yea..not now..

19. One song that’s meaningful to you?
too much to mention

20. Last person who called you?
aris

22. Ever thought of robbing a bank?
yea..hahahah….NOT.

23. Do you still have feelings for
your ex?
well umh…I,, umh…hmm.. let’s see…umh… =/

24. Have you ever been given roses?
of course..-_-"

25. What is your all-time favorite romance movie?
50 FIRST DATES!!aarrghhh the best chick flicks ever!!

26. How many times have you honestly been in
love?
2

27. Do you believe that everyone has a soulmate?
sir yes sir! ^-^

28. Whats your current problem? wanna
solve it?
my digestive system. yea..give me my health back..>.<

29. Have you ever had your heart broken?
yesss

30. Experienced Long Distance
nooooooooooopppeeeee….

L A S T
1. Friend you saw: dias and amel
2. Talked to on the phone: aris
3. Text: sandy

T O D A Y
1. Wearing: pajamas
2. Better than yesterday: are you asking?

T O M O R R O W
1. Is: the first day of my second terms at ITS
2. Got plans: classes..dinner with sandy..
3. Dislikes about tomorrow: the fact that my terms are starting..uurrghh>.<

F A V O R I T E
1. Number: 7
2. color: big fat pink
3. Season: summer and autumn

C U R R E N T L Y
1. Missing someone: sir yes sir!
2. Mood: good

Q U E S T I O N S / A N S W E R S

Q: 1st thing you did this morning?
A: EAT! hakakak..

Q: Last thing you ate and drank?
A: kit kat and jasmine tea

Q: What’s annoying you right now?
A: my acnes and pimples

Q: Do you support long distance
relationships?
A: nope. Had I, I would’ve been devastated by now

Q: Is there a person who is on your
mind right now?
A: yes.

Q: Do you think that person is
thinking of you too?
A: yes. definitely. =]

Q: Where was the last place you went to?
A: surabaya town square

Q: Do you smile often?
A: yea!

Q: Are you a friendly person?
A: not really

Q: Who’s bed did you sleep in last
night?
A: mine

Q: What color of shirt are you wearing?
A: fucshia

Q: What were you doing at 9 last night?
A: taking cheeses at foodmart surabaya town square

saya baru beberapa hari pulang dari liburan di KL..despite the rapid development of properties nyah,, ngga banyak yang berubah dari kota inih. tapi ada satu perubahan yang bikin saya sebal. makin susah ajah cari sim card prepaid!! sekarang dibatesin bet seh..uurrgghh.. >.< terakir saya kesana dua taon yang lalu dan ituh gampang bet dapetinnyah..dari seven eleven mpe gerai buku monorail ajah pasti adah.. beda bet ma kemaren inih. hal pertama yang saya lakuin pertama sampe di KLIA adalah nyari prepaid. Masa’ yah,, satu airport nih saya puterin duty free-nya,, pada gajual! dan herannya, jawabnya juga samah "no prepaid,, we only have the top-up". anjrit. mungkin kamu nanya,kenapa ngga ngaktifin nomor indo saya ajah gituh kan iia? jujur aja saya lebih seneng pake nomor sanah. jadi ngga berasa ‘nunut’ jaringan.. lagian keknya lebi murah deh.. 13 sen bow…

yang beda juga dari liburan kali inih,, biasanya kalu saya pulang liburan bawa belanjaan segede gaban,, kali inih saya cuman dapet beberapa barang2 ajah..heran,, kan lagi heboh2nya promo CNY tuh (chinese new year) disanah,, ko barang2 nya pada jelek2 yah??-_-"

oiia, barusan tadi aris telpun. ternyata dia gy dapet IBL [ijin bermalam di luar] dan seperti biasa, dia nyeritain segala macem keidupannya di akpol. hehehe,, banyak - banyaknya sih yang lucu2..=] gabanyak yang beruba sejak terakir dia telpun saya sekitar sebulan yang laluh..masie manja,, masie ’so sweet’ hahaha.. tapi saya agak concern dengan kesehatannya kerna waktu dia terakir keruma, dia batuk2 kenceng gituh. batuk yang selalu dia dapet kalu bies kcapean atau ngga fit =[ I know him and to see him being in that condition really breaks my heart. tapi sebaliknya,dari segi psikologis he seems to enjoy his life more..=] hope he really is doing well..^-^

hari selasa saya nonton ma sandy. otomatis romantis. anjrit. nih film apaan seeeh….. hahaha..konyol…..-_-" ngocol bet…. sebenernya kita sempet mu nonton di surabaya town square sih..tapi berhubung bangunan baru ituh lokasinya kalu banjir suka ngajak horor [gimana engga,, banjirnya se-kap mobil cab!!se-stang motor pula...heuhh..T_T],, akirnya nonton di GM.. walhasil sekarang saya masie penasaran inih surabaya town square tuh kek gimanah.. pada bilang kek PVJ atauh ciwalk gituh.. hihihi,,ada embassynya juga tida iia? buwat yang dah coba, gimanah komentarnyah?

sebenernya rencana saya ma sandy hari selasa ituh bukan nonton..tapi ke WBL. tapi berhubung saya cape bet kerna baru mpe sby malemnya and saya juga blom FRS-an,,akirnya rencana ituh kita pending mpe minggu depan, hari kamis. moga2 jadi. doain iia….=] sekarang monyedh yang satuh ituh gy liburan di bali.  barusan dia sms bilang kalu disuruh joged dangdut di depan umum…hakakakakak…ngocol beut pasti.. asal jangan mpe malu2in bangsa monyet ajah..>.<

kemaren ultah bokap yang ke empat tujuh, kita maem bareng d duck king. haduh. jadi berasa ikutan CNY. rame mampus!!~_~ yaiiiaalah..secara itu resto jualannya chinese food.. mana yang dateng pada pake baju merah pula..jadi berasa saltum..>.<

anyway dah jam11 nih saya gabisa nulis banyak2 lagih..

see ya everyone!

+ What’s the connection between you and
the last person you texted?
^^ a friend. a very good friend =]

+ About what? (the text…)
^^ about him coming by

+ What is wrong with you right now?
^^ no idea

+ Do you miss your first love?
^^ it’s hard to decide which person’s my first love =D

+ What do you want in your life right
now?
^^ a good end

+ Are you happy?
^^ njih

+ What do you smell like?
^^ like a lady who’s wearing estee lauder I guess -_-"

+ What are you drinking?
^^ nothing

+ What’s your favorite thing to have on
your bed?
^^ a linen blanket given by my ex. it’s not the memmories that makes me love it so much, but the fact that it warms my body perfectly! ^-^

+ What do you wear to bed?
^^ nothing but lingerie. sometimes pajamas, hehe

+ Do you tend to make relationships
complicated?
^^ nope. at least not supposedly..

+ Whose house did you go to today?
^^ my parents’

+ What about the night before that?
^^ my parents’

+ Do you like anyone right now?
^^ yea…sort of

+ Are you bored?
^^ nope..my life’s exciting =]

+ Do you trust people easily?
^^ no..

+ What is the last movie you watched?
^^ american gangsters

+ Do you say "dawg"?
^^ hahaha…randy jackson does that better than no one else

+ What are you excited about?
^^ life =]

+ Who was last to touch your butt?
^^ mum..she said that I’d lost curves..=[

+ What’s on your mind right now?
^^ this disturbing feeling of hunger....!!>_<

+ Who was the last person to make you
cry?
^^ aris. he's my ex.

+ Name someone whose name starts with
the
letter "R."
^^ Ratih. she's my 'wife'

+ Do you care what others think about
you?
^^ not really.

+ Do you think you'll be married in 10
years?
^^ AAAAMIIIN!!

+ Will you kiss the last person you
kissed again?
^^ I..umh..I don't know..

+ What do you look forward to in the
next
3 months?
^^ better grades..and umh..a REAL boyfriend who STAYS would be really nice =]

+ Who was the last person you called?
^^ sandy monyedh

+ Who was the last missed call?
^^ sandy moynedh

+ What’s your ring tone?
^^ original settings on each phone

+ Do you plan on moving out within the
next year?
^^ no..

+ What were you doing at 9pm last
Saturday night?
^^ sitting by my bed and talking on the phone with sandy..

+ What happened at 10:00 am today?
^^ 10….? I think I was driving my car..

+ What kind of phone do you have?
^^ O2 zinc. Nokia 6255

APA YANG PERTAMA KALI KALO DENGER INI.
HARUS CEPAT TANPA MIKIR.

abang?
; merah

miring?
; sudut

jam?
; GUESS

jarum?
; suntik

sekolah?
; smala

banci?
; "Jangkriiikk…"

putih?
; bersih

piknik?
; alas kain kotak - kotak merah-putih ama keranjangnya

buku?
; tebel

remaja?
; abg

jakarta?

;shopping

tenda?
; pramuka

lelaki?

; ngganteng

bunga?
; mawar

gelang?
; karet

beruang?
; polar

sihir?
; topi item runcing

cewek?
; cemen

lipstick?
; 415

vespa?
; retro bet

handphone?
; "HP q tak dhekek endhi yo???"

cuci?
; baju

duit?
; butuh

monyet?
; lagi ontheway keruma saya

gue?
; aini lah.