hello aini

it was one of those days when we had this long weekend and almost everyone took off for their hometown.

so I decided to hit SPI. alone. hakakakak… [this might be one of my top reasons why I hated being single -_-" ]

The road were a lot less flocked,, and the traffic was much calmer..

I took the highway and on one of those flowy lines,, "Coconut" by Benny Sings was suddenly played on my tweeters. wiiiiii… it was almost 6 pm so the sun was setting down and highway never felt more peaceful… as the beat slowly tame my mood,, twilight starts taking the lights off and DAMN!! it was one of those beautiful moments I’d rely on…^-^ the only thing missing was a cup of coffee.. [and a lovely gentleman to cuddle of course..-_-" hakakak..]

I looooveeeeeeee driving on a lonely road and listen to songs that boost my mood.. hotel costes.. cafe del mar.. and a hint of jamiroquai would help a lot..=]

listening to that song also reminds me of this "blueish" feeling I always have when going abroad and taking taxi to the hotel. EVERY highway felt the same. Malaysia..Australia.. Singapore..THailand.. they give almost the same quietude,, similar dullness. Trees and vast greeniest grasses on each sides.. silent sobery.. they were all the same..

                                  

                                                 

but then,,suddenly a song crashed everything…T_T

"Lost In Space" was played. AaAaAaAAaRrRrRrRGgGghHH…I HATE this sooonggg sooooooooo muuuchhhhh……..

it brings back memories.. good and bad. I remembered sitting next to him on his car while he was driving towards our saturday night routine… and how we laughed at the length we would go on just to get there…:,-( or how we fell into a sudden silent when this song was played..=]

hmm… how’s he doing there anyway? is he alright?

I think I’ve fallen into a deep eternal long lost. A part of my heart that’s cold and out of touch with reality. A part that always longs for him and never lose faith on him.yet somehow,I cannot stop believing these feelings.. I tried to. I tried to fool and tell myself that to still believe in him is such a stupid idea. but I JUST CAN’T HELP it? I CAN’T fool myself!! I somehow know that this feeling is true and to pretend that it’s not is such an evil thing to do.. >.<

just like what lighthouse sings : "I’ll never lose my faith in you.."

I know,, I know,, it’s been so long and I should’ve moved on. But it’s not that easy….>.< I need a real top notch gentleman to wake me up from this awful dream I always have about him..

                                    

                                             

where is this guy…………..?

where is this guy who’ll walk with me and stop me from fully drowned into memories……………??