hello aini

it does feel like I’m being stuck in a relationship that goes straight to nowhere. it doesn’t feel like we’re being just friends. instead, it feels like we’re being JUST friends.

I think I’m in trouble. because I’m starting to want this relationship to not be JUST friends. I think I’ve fallen. >.<

aaaaaaarggggggggggggghhhhhhhhh…….!!!I can’t believe this!!after all these boys coming in and out of my life [10 boys in 8 months!!TEN boys in EIGHT months!!],,and I still got to choose the one that I can’t have???SSSSHHHHHHHH*************TTTTTTTTTTT…….

I wanted this feeling to go away. but he keeps on coming back. and did things he wasn’t supposed to do when playing his role as JUST friends. no no no,,we didn’t ****,, NOT IN A MILLION YEARS!!

it’s these small things like ****ing hands,,str*k*ng hairs,,etc.

Okayh, so he **** my hands. and I didn’t even MIND!!aaarrgghh….!! I lost all defenses!!

look, the point is,, he wasn’t exactly playing his role well too! we even fought for something…well..umh…unimportant. and worse, there were actually emotions involved in that fight..uuuwwhh.. >.<

anyway, he’s HOT. I’m NOT. do I stand a chance of winning him?? -_-"