hello aini

this is absolutely the best timing to blog before Ramadhan starts. A month in which I salvage myself. I’ve been spending this whole year digging into a lot of nasty things. from unas, graduation, breakup, spmb, and orientation (oh yeah, and God knows what’s next!!). It’s always nice to hybernate my mental health for a little while, and then off again with a new start. the noise I’m flocked is absolutely deafening, but when Ramadhan comes, everything seems to fall into places, and suddenly, those noises aren’t so noisy anymore. more like a…white noise.

I just got home. got a quick-snack-stop at K-patats and I got dumplings, the taste of which still lingers in my mouth. ouch…this is so gross. also got a cup of coffee, a VERY sweet coffee, which is absolutely ridiculous. and that was my second cup. the first cup was a lot better, eventhough I had to drink it quietly when the lecturer wasn’t aware of my being there. haha… I NEED a cup of coffee (well,, or two then) to survive physics. not to offend ANY of you loving physics of course, but I admit it, I’m lame at physics. worse, I SUCK at physics!!lucky that the material given today wasn’t a lot different from what I’ve learned at senior high. I can still catch up. I could still manage teaching my friend a thing or two about it, hehe..turns out that my colleagues weren’t exactly too different from me either, I can still breathe.

tuesday is my new least favourite day after sunday. my classes are so all over the place that I’ll have to run around to stay on time. first class in the morning I have physics from 7 - 9. afterclass, I only have 2 hours of break before starting out the next class which begins at 11 and finishes at 1. then…..,, I get another 2 hours break intersection before starting another calss at 3. the thing is, a 2hours break is absolutely driving crazy. 2 hours are too long to be left only for waiting for the next class, in the other hand are also too short to be used for R&R. that’s why it’s exhausting to jump around class to class..

I got very little amount food to eat today, and one of them is those nasty dumplings I had that I’ve told you before. I’m not on a diet, and to be honest, I’m not that fat either. it’s just that in the starting grid of these new activities, I seem to be absorbed into it. I couldn’t organize those well enough to even have time to help myself into something. not even cookies (well, sometimes I get biscuits, but that’s not the point here anyway). and now I weigh less than I used to be. I can actually feel my cheekbone again and the black circles round my eyes seem to get a lot thicker. A doctor once told me that those circles are caused by the decrease of one of my kidney. damn, sounds horrible, doesn’t it? yea I got too tired too often back when I was at the last year of my senior high. and now I’m repairing my physical health..I’m gaining power too!haha..

I’m off tomorrow so I can definitely stay up late. but tomorrow’s not gonna be easy either. I’ve got to get up at around 9,, get myself prepared,,and off to do college assignments at 11..and then,,go to campus at 1. geez…. I’m soooooo FULL….!!!

maybe this is what excites me the most. the new atmosphere, the sudden business, the jawdropping assignments, and lots of lots of new people to meet. I’m going to be fine. and I’m goin to be JUST fine.. it’s time to move on. everything that happened in the past should stay in the past, and what the future holds for me is yet to be seen. but I assure you, it’s going to be as colorful as life can be! ^_^ see ya!!